2months+ had just passed since i last blogged..Been super busy with work and of cos changes in my life..
Thad had turned 18mths couple of weeks ago and we decided to switch him to the childcare centre nearer my place so that i can move back and hence have more pairs of hands to help look after Thad. The move was not easy as it seems as Thad was already used to his infantcare. He cried buckets again in his new school, but this time B was there to hold me up emotionally. My parents were also very sad about thad's move cos this means that they wun be able to see him on a daily basis as what they have been doin so since his birth. I had to hold back my tears when my father bade Thad gdbye..and im sure he feels the same way too...=(
Moving back home sure have its perks. B, my FIL ans SIL helped to take care/play with thad and i can have more stuff to pack my stuff or just have that bit of rest after work...Thus, im not as tired as before and so far, no sickness this month! *cross fingers*
Anyway, must be wondering why im blogging in the morn on a weekday. Nope, not from the office,but frm home. Poor Thad, had this viral fever for 6 days! It was a heart-wrenching and stressful period for us. Rushed him to KK emergency when his temp hit 39/40 twice! but still no outcome and they just say the same thing, this usually last for 5 days...-_- Monday came and we decided to bring him to see his PD which was not open during weekends. Gave antiboitics and thad is finally ok now. hopefully the fever wun come back again....Its really tiring as we set our alarms every 3 hrs to check on Thad. Really scared that his fever will just shoot up in the middle of the nite! And the frustrating thing is that Thad refuses to eat his med, get his temp checked and getting sponged. He threw his temper whenever we do so and we had a hard time placating him. Wonder where he got his temper from!!! =p
But watever it is, his getting back to his normal self is our upmost importance, no matter how tired/frustrating we are. We will definitely do everything to the best of our ability to see him better...=) I was telling B on the journey home yesterday how this year is so not a gd year for us as so many things happened! He told me something that struck a chord...How can i be ready for another when im not strong enuff for something i have now? Which is quite true...everytime when Thad gets sick, i sometimes will just break down in tears and desperation. Guess God is building up my character day by day and showing me the reason for His decision. B asked me why i keep questioning God's decision? Well, its hard not to do so as im like constantly reminded of what i had lost. Guess i need to have more faith, as our Good God makes All things beautiful in His time. Im sure when the time is right, he will reveal to me His sovereign plan for me. =)
For now, i just pray that i will not be too sadden when i am reminded of the incident and will try to move forward in my life. Sometimes i will just break down at its 'anniversary' or when i think of its milestone...sigh...i really need to become stronger and yes i can! Thanks to B who has been most supportive to me and will not snap at me when i kept asking 'Why?' everynow and then..=)
On the work front, it has been crazy as the weeks pass...my new coll just resigned last week after 3 months here...and nope, im not the evil colleague if you are having these tots...i guess some things are not beyond our control. Its gg to be stressful months ahead again! =/ but i fret not cos God is with me...=)
Turn your eyes upon Jesus...
Look thru in His wonderful face
And the things of this world will grow strangely dim
In the light of His glory and grace...
Just 4 simple sentences in a song and it Always touches my heart whenever i hear it....
"For i know the plans i have for you, " declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11
