Had a short break to Genting with my parents, aunties, uncles and THad! His first overseas trip! It was really a challenge starting with the packing of luggage. I was so afriad that i missed out something! And yes i did - i forgot to bring his toothbrush and toothpaste! Thank God my mum brought! hee...our luggage was so big - we had 3 personal bags, one huge luggage and a pram! The transportating of the luggages are real tiring! not to mention a 10kg thad...-_-

Thank God Thad slept most of the journey to and fro..and once he's awake, he cant sit still at all! He kept climbing up and down, wanting to see the people behind and kept wanting to hold our watches/specs and then throw them on the floor! And really thank God that he did not poop thru the journey. Hee...

It was a good break for both B and me admist what is happening in our life now. We didnt really explore the theme parks, but went shopping ( B bought a lot of stuff, me?? NIL ), eating and sleeping. Ha..We even went to play at the arcade - those tickets one where we accumulated to exchange for a England tissue box holder. =) Managed to watch the finals of the WC where Spain won ( Yawnz...) seems like the team that i supported during this WC kept losing one by one..B said lucky i didnt bet. HA...tHAD really enjoyed himself thruout the trip. He kept smiling and playing with my family. Guess he really liked being in the centre of attention. My aunties and uncle entertained him greatly and yes, he entertained back by blinking his eye at them, tilting his head and popping his eyes ( yup, his new funny face trick). He also enjoyed walking here and there. I guess once they learn how to walk, they disregard all boundaries! He kept walking up to strangers and smile at them, kept eh-ing ppl machiam its his best frens..-_- sometimes i really duno where to hide my face! HAHA...

One conversation that we had whereby B was stumped:
Me: Should i wear my wedding band to Genting?
B: Wear la, nm ma...
Me: But have diamonds on it ma...scared dangerous...Wat if i kana robbed?
B: Wun la, the diamonds so small...
Me: Ya, NOW THEN YOU KNOW!!!!
B: ..........

Back date to 22nd June.....
Sorry i had to let you go..I simply have no other choice.....

~Maybe, just maybe...i have got it all wrong...and somehow im sick of arguing for what i believe in. Im just so tired...~

A Walk Down Memory Lane...

Saw YL status on fb saying do you remember what you are doing 10 yrs ago? I paused and mused...10 years ago, i was at the tender age of 16, coming to 17...Starting uni at SIM i guess...so young then and my, how things changed! To recap my memories, i went to log into Friendster ( yes, this virus-infested social network is still alive) to find my blog.

Spent the whole afternoon reading my past entries starting from 2005! Besides the change in partners, my lifestyle pretty much changed a lot. With Thad in tow, i can hardly plan an outing to one of my frequent haunt - sentosa...or clubbing so to speak. When i read about my clubbing entries, i cant help but chuckle to myself. Clubbing with Rozi and peeps are real fun! They are one humorous bunch! haha...

I miss hanging out with hc and the guys from sec sch too. Speaking of which, hc has relocated to HK to wrk. Will miss you babe! One less fren to meet up! =( Remember to email mi on mon k...! =) The guys oso MIA for a while le...duno what they are up to...but w/o hc, dun tink i will meet up with them! haha....

Sometimes its hard to believe that time passes so fast! And how things have changed! But im not complaining...Looking at my life now ( apart from what is happening now) , im grateful for a husband like B and a son like thad...I was watching Toy Story 3 yesterday online ( loved it so much btw) and there was this scene whereby Andy was leaving for college...his mum said to him - How i wish i can always be by your side. After hearing this, i turned to Thad ( who fell asleep halfway thru the movie!) and said the same thing to him, which C retorted at me, saying that im silly cos Thad will grow up and get married one day. But Yeap, til that day comes....=p

Aniwae, i wonder how is Thad coping at the infantcare. When i dropped him off just now, he was crying buckets! So heart pain to see him lydat. His eyes were like speaking to me - Mummy, why are you leaving me here? Haiz...so heart wrenching! But his cries show that im no 1 in his heart right? Show that he cant bear to leave me rite? Hee...Hope he can adapt soon! Jia you, my darling!!

Its not easy...

When life throws challenges your way..

LAst week my life was literally turned upside down..with 2 huge pieces of bad news, adjustments to be made in my life and just desperately in need to keep my sanity in place.

One of the bad news was that my mum cant look after Thad le bcos she needs go thru a major op and hence needs some time to recover. I took about 2 days to search for a infantcare, repeating my urgent situation in every phone call. So for those preggy mummies who intend to send yr child to infantcare, pls be more kiasu abit and call them up to be placed on waitlist early! I was quite shocked in the low supply of infantcare in Singapore! Thank God one infantcare just opp my parents home is able to accomodate thad. My only inconvenience is that i have to stay at sk for the time being...Have to lug my stuff back again. But i guess we have to take things one step at a time...

Thank God that my mum's op was a successful one. Hope she will recover her strength back soon! I have been at home for a while and this made me more appreciative of what my mum done, taking care of thad these 15mths...its not easy! And i tink it will be a while before i can easily meet frens, catch a movie after work...But wells, this are the little sacrifices i need to take..

For myself, im slowing accepting reality, knowing its not easy...Wish to quickly move on in my life and hope that whenever this topic is raised, i can easily share w/o having tears in my eyes or having a heavy heart.

Im finally gg back to wrk next monday...think in the month of june, i only wrk for 7 days? Haha...Many changes in work and i hope i can cope and adapt to the changes. Sigh..

England is out of the WC, with another controversial disallowed goal...!#$!@#$!@!$ I was jumping on top of my bed again when Lampard scored the 2nd goal but was reduced to tears when it was disallowed! Stupid kelong referee and linesman! It could have seriously changed the game! But haiz..another 4 years ba!

My Life So Far

Whee...what a roller coaster ride my life was the past few weeks, or should i say months...Drastic changes in work, relationships, life etc made me lost for words...Energy level has been a dangerous low and immune system has taken a huge beating!

Thank God that He has always brought us thru this difficult period. Though some things are still left unsettled, we have the faith that all are in His hands...

Supposed to attend 2 weddings last last week but only to attend 1 due to our sick family. =( Really felt guilty not able to help out as promised at Rozi's wedding. Actually i didnt do much at Jan's wedding as well! So sorry Jan! But yr wedding was beautiful and KC was crappy as usual! haha....Almost rolled on the floor laughing at his Thank You speech! Cant wait to see yr Maldives photos!!

WC season has started and my, am i glad that we subscribed to it cos apparently the timings of this WC arent so bad! Managed to watch most of the matches...=) Once every 4 years, B and me will come together as a couple to support the same team - England!

Instead of sitting at one end of the bed, We huddled tgt and watch the match..

Instead of hurling insults at each other team, we teamed up to hurl insults at England's opposing team.

Instead of one black face and one happy face at the end of the match, its either 2 black faces or 2 happy faces...=)

But sad to say, the team has disappointed us AGAIN! And i cld think of some reason why...

1) The key players are made up of arch rival teams - Chelsea and Man Utd. Can you imagine they cant wait to tear each other up for 7-8 mths before and now they must work tgt in a team???

2) The line up was crap...Why the-cannot-seem-to-score-striker-Heskey is still in the first 11 is more baffling to me as why Singapore cant make it for WC 2010.

3) Players like Short-but-good-winger-Joe Cole is left on the bench is like watching the WC on your 24 inch TV in your bedroom instead of your 42 inch TV in the living room.

4) Capello has this irritating habit of only letting the players know who is in the starting line up minutes to kick off and thus made players like butter finger Robert Green feels like butter thereafter. Poor him, he can defintely get a early retirement after this WC.

5) England do not have a steady goalie. All 3 goalies are known to be Green in the game ( forgive the pun) and can you imagine their only hope is on David James now? Its like saying we are counting on Singapore to enter WC 2014.

6) The jabulani ball.. Yes, that ball causes Green and other goalies to slip in the games.

That aside, i do admire some of the squad non-Man Utd players like Carragher. Other than Ferdinand, he's my no 1 defender! With both of them, the goalie feel more assured.

Looks like this WC is going to go down the books with the most number of upsets in the big teams like Germany ( orbi good!! Who ask you to criticize England! ), Italy, France ( another problem child) etc...Issit the Jabulani ball doing its black magic? I guess i should say the ball is round. If Greece can win the Euro in 2004...i cant see why North Korea cant win the WC this year...=)

Go England!!

~ Cant wait for Tues to arrive!!~

Its so sad...

When i see how the society is turning out to be..

im sure everybody heard of the phrase, 'Customer is King' but i guess some customers really took it too far. Nowadays, one has to be fierce and harsh, in order to have his/her way. Bank cant offer you a free gift cos you are not the 1st 100 customers, shout/scream and hey presto, you get yr gift...security guard dun allow you to board taxi there, scold/shout and bingo, you are able to board...

Why?? WHY?? Why must things done in this way? All things, all rules are set with a certain purpose. There 's always a certain protocol, certain procedure to follow. But when some jokers want to have their way, they just need to be the bad guy and suddenly all these so called rules are bent. Encountered this before. Same situation. I ask the person nicely for XXX, the person say no. Another person asked for XXX, kick up a huge fuss when declined and thus in the end, was given XXX. So, in the end, i was being penalised cos i didnt act like a prima donna? So in the future, i need to scold/shout in order to have things my way? Is this the right attitude we are teaching the younger generation? Haiz....

Same goes for a certain nationality that has seen a bigger presence in our country. They cut queues for almost anything! So, are we supposed to be like them in order to survive in this society? What happen to law and order? Or am i too 'straight' le? Once heard this comment from a fren's fren when asked why she is still childless...'Look at the world now, I do not want to bring my child into this ugly world!' So disheartening to hear this...and i wonder..how can we make this world a better place to live in...

yea, emo me...just that i experienced back to back situations like the ones above recently which made me so down...sigh...

'And be kind to one another, tender-hearted, forgiving one another, just as God in Christ also forgave you'
Ephesians 4:32

Somehow, the last glimmer of hope is so thin that if you blink, you might even miss it...

Realised:

-That my personal time now is SO SO rare.

-That im really Very tired

-That i totally lost track of time...What its May now??

-That i have not been to places that i used to frequent last time.


To share this meaningful quote that i read in a mag one day...

'While we try to teach our children all about life, our children teach us what life is all about'

Thanks Thaddaeus, Mummy Love you....


~Why cant you realise that im not perfect? I have my own limitations too~